I will always remember the moment I found out you were gone. I think about it often and wonder if it was a dream. I think at how it's been 5 years already and time has flown because it seems like just yesterday. I sit and wonder what life would be like if you were still here. Where would you be, still in the Army? What would you be doing? Getting married? Having kids? What would you look like? More handsome, like your dad? Facial hair. I just can't see it. I wish I could.
I remember the last time I saw you, it was at grandma and grandpa's duplex I was cleaning, and you came in to help. You looked good, it had been a while since I had seen you. Naturally I wanted to hug you like I always did when we were kids. Mainly because I know you didn't like them so much. I don't know why, I'm a good hugger. For whatever reason, probably because I'd been cleaning and I was sweaty and you probably didn't want to smell me anyway, I didn't hug you, but said hi, and asked how you were. I remember that moment. Mainly because I remember you and what you meant to me.
I wanted so bad to take my family to Arlington this weekend on your 5 year birthday in Heaven so I could see your gravestone again. Life however, happened. I moved to Missouri! One day though I will go back and I can't wait.
You know, Sarin might never have met you or know who you are just yet, but she reminds me a lot of you. Maybe naming her Sarin Justine I hoped she would. I can see her timid nature, like you always were. I can see her creative side like you through photography. She also likes to take pictures and see them when I take them. Then there are the hugs. Most days she's just not into them, but others she will wrap her arms around me and I can't help but think those are the moments you're looking down and squeezing me tight through her letting me know it's all going to be alright.
I remember you. I will never forget you and the sacrifice you made for not only me but our whole country and I can't wait to see you again to say thank you, I love you, and hug you once more. Rest in peace Justin.
I remember the last time I saw you, it was at grandma and grandpa's duplex I was cleaning, and you came in to help. You looked good, it had been a while since I had seen you. Naturally I wanted to hug you like I always did when we were kids. Mainly because I know you didn't like them so much. I don't know why, I'm a good hugger. For whatever reason, probably because I'd been cleaning and I was sweaty and you probably didn't want to smell me anyway, I didn't hug you, but said hi, and asked how you were. I remember that moment. Mainly because I remember you and what you meant to me.
I wanted so bad to take my family to Arlington this weekend on your 5 year birthday in Heaven so I could see your gravestone again. Life however, happened. I moved to Missouri! One day though I will go back and I can't wait.
You know, Sarin might never have met you or know who you are just yet, but she reminds me a lot of you. Maybe naming her Sarin Justine I hoped she would. I can see her timid nature, like you always were. I can see her creative side like you through photography. She also likes to take pictures and see them when I take them. Then there are the hugs. Most days she's just not into them, but others she will wrap her arms around me and I can't help but think those are the moments you're looking down and squeezing me tight through her letting me know it's all going to be alright.
I remember you. I will never forget you and the sacrifice you made for not only me but our whole country and I can't wait to see you again to say thank you, I love you, and hug you once more. Rest in peace Justin.
